I'm still feeling the horrible ache of being unwanted and unloved right now. Sure Master tried his best a couple days ago to tell me I'm loved, but I don't feel it. He was only affectionate for one day and then went back to his normal, unloving, uncaring self who puts me on hold. I just wish I wasn't in love sometimes because of how much it hurts and how much I'm starting to feel like it's not worth it. Sure Master is the person I want, but he doesn't seem to want me. I even told him I oogled someone else and he doesn't see why he should care. I think he really just is in love with that other girl and doesn't give a crap about me. I'm starting to hate myself again. I'm going to bed before I start throwing a tantrum and scream at him for being such a horrible husband and Master.
On another note, Master said that he might visit soon, though I'm sure that's just a sick tease like everything else he says to me. I don't know why he bothers saying stuff like that when he knows I'll just get upset when it doesn't happen or it happens a really long time from now. He might just like seeing me upset.