Thursday, January 10, 2013
Master has been really really nice to me and spends lots of time roleplaying with me and doing some light chatting, but I still feel lonely. He even has been a bit lovey and calls me by my nickname instead of just "my dear", though he's only on at night and I end up passing out while talking to him. I have to get up around six to seven in the morning and talking to him until four in the morning every morning isn't doable anymore. I'll be lucky if I even get to speak with him for a few minutes this evening seeing as it's not even four and I'm already tired as can be. Though it has been a rather gloomy day.
I just miss my Master so much and I can't wait to be in his arms again. It's another fifty days until the obedience game is over and I feel as time goes by, I just feel worse and worse and am afraid of messing up more and more. I just need to try and cheer up, but I can't. Every night even saying one word to Master makes me feel like crying and I want to be in his arms so bad.